Tony set his drink down on Wanda's table on one of the napkins from the bag and held his head in his fingers. Speaking like this was emotionally exhausting to him, even for short periods. Glibness was an easier defense mechanism.
There ought to be no real reason he should even feel compelled to be here, having this conversation. Without the team, who even were he and Wanda to each other? And beside that, Peter adored her, but who was he to Wanda, in the end? Tony shouldn't have to justify anything.
Should he?
Except that he and Wanda were something to one another.
There had always been some semblance of family in Fury's grand experiment. Small, and fucked up, and weird, but it was there. That was why it had hurt everyone so badly when Tony threw it on the ground and broke it.
"Then why does it feel like it?" he asked, with no hint of sarcasm or waspishness in his voice. It was an honest question, not an accusation.
"He just wants a dad. Every father figure that kid has ever had is dead and he just wants a dad. And I'm so tired of being terrified by that, because look how bad mine fucked the job up, and look how bad I fucked it up between all of us."
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Date: 2018-08-03 12:47 pm (UTC)There ought to be no real reason he should even feel compelled to be here, having this conversation. Without the team, who even were he and Wanda to each other? And beside that, Peter adored her, but who was he to Wanda, in the end? Tony shouldn't have to justify anything.
Should he?
Except that he and Wanda were something to one another.
There had always been some semblance of family in Fury's grand experiment. Small, and fucked up, and weird, but it was there. That was why it had hurt everyone so badly when Tony threw it on the ground and broke it.
"Then why does it feel like it?" he asked, with no hint of sarcasm or waspishness in his voice. It was an honest question, not an accusation.
"He just wants a dad. Every father figure that kid has ever had is dead and he just wants a dad. And I'm so tired of being terrified by that, because look how bad mine fucked the job up, and look how bad I fucked it up between all of us."